Fall Apart Friday

I'm falling apart. My body is getting old, and it's trying to tell me so in not so many words. I can't change the fact that I am getting old either, which really bugs me. If I'm getting age-related illnesses, why do you have to call them "age-related"?? Is it just so I really feel that there is no hope at all for my condition? Or is it to remind me that others get these conditions, too, and not to worry about it 'cause there's nothing I can do about it?

I went to a naturopath yesterday to get tested for food sensitivities. I tested sensitive to wheat and soy. I'm still in shock and starting to go into auto-pilot to attempt to save my sanity. I really don't want to have food allergies. Or sensitivities! Or whatever! But I don't want the symptoms even more, so I am removing wheat and soy from my diet to see if the symptoms that I have been suffering from will disappear. I pray they do.

Now I feel like I have four kids. I have one healthy child, one with food allergies (that makes it feel like double the work!), and now I have food allergies myself, which feels like yet another child in my family. Maybe the Lord knew that even though I wanted 4 children, they wouldn't look exactly like I hoped they would (you know, small and cute). Two of them look like they are supposed to, and two of them look like phantom food allergic people, that I can't see, but still have to shop for, and cook for, and clean for.

I ran across these song lyrics today that really hit home: "If sacrifice requires that all my kingdoms fall, I surrender all." Lord, help me to surrender all to You. Amen.

A Wild and Wooly Wednesday to you!

Today is playgroup day for me. Oh, and my almost 3 year old! LOL! This means I will be busy all morning. And I'm not ready for that.

Lord, give me peace and contentment for today and all that it brings. Help me to speak wisely, but only when I must speak at all. Work through me in the moms that you bring to playgroup today. Help me to be a blessing to them! In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Saturday Surprise

I'm going to try to start blogging here regularly. That's part of the surprise. The other part: I think I'm allergic to something in my favorite sweet and salty peanut butter bars. And of course I bought a box at our local discount club store. Oh well. Looks like my 5yo has a lot of peanut butter bars to eat for snacks now.

Blessings! ~Jen

Gone

Gone are the thoughts that were just in my head a second ago. "Outta the den you guys," I say, as I try to scrap together some semblance of sanity to this world called Motherhood.

Gone are the days when I could eat a piece of candy and my child would not whine that he wanted one, too. When will I get a treat for me that I won't feel somehow obligated to share?

Gone is a peaceful night's sleep... or a peaceful day for that matter. When will I get to enjoy a few nights in a row of comfortable sleep on my brand new bed that cost a small fortune?

Gone are the days when I could make everyone at the table happy with what I fixed for dinner. How long will my kitchen be compared to a fine buffet restaurant, and with disdane?

Gone are the days when I could spend quiet time with the Lord, both quiet heart, and quiet room. How many more times will I not be able to find my Bible and notebook on my way out the door to go to a ladies' Bible study or church meeting?

But when I look back on this time, three or maybe five years from now, what will be gone then? What will I miss about this time?

Let me savor "now" Lord, before it, in it's uniqueness, is gone, too.

~~Jennifer Young
copyright 2008

Because I'm not going to sit back and do nothing...

I love Jesus. I love the Bible. I love God, who created the entire universe in it's diversity and complexity. I believe the God does not want us to understand Him fully for the sole reason that he wants us to TRUST Him more. That said, here are some websites that have crossed my computer screen recently. I hope the Lord works in your heart through the reading of these authors. I know He has in mine. Love, Jen

www.silencingchristians.org
www.bible.org
www.expelledthemovie.com
www.dissentfromdarwin.org
post-darwinist.blogspot.com
www.probe.org

Are you a servant?

Check out the new link I have for Portland's CityFest. Find ways that you can be a part of the "Season of Service" either in Portland, or wherever you live! Then celebrate with others when the summer comes to a close, over what you have accomplished for the Kingdom!

Would Ronald have agreed to this?

This article is just too important not to pass on.

http://www.onenewsnow.com/Culture/Default.aspx?id=74691

Check here for more information:

http://www.nglcc.org/ht/d/sp/i/213/pid/213